Someone is always depending on me. From the day I found out I was pregnant, I felt solely responsible for the little human being inside of me. I immediately cut out caffeine, started taking prenatal vitamins, and researched everything I could about being pregnant. Since Cooper has been born, I am always feeding him, making sure he takes enough naps, and constantly keeping an eye on him. He needs me all the time, which means I have to make sacrifices myself sometimes.
I am always being watched. Cooper is a mama’s boy for sure. We spend most of our time together, so when he can’t see me, let’s just say he doesn’t like it. I’m learning that everything I do is seen by him. When we play peekaboo, he likes to try it himself. When I’m eating, he wants to eat my food. When we’re in church, and I’m praising the Lord, he is starting to mimic me, by yelling and throwing his hands up. I hope that as my sweet boy grows up, that I will be the kind of person he can grow up to be like. I hope that I can be an example for him to look up to and follow. I pray that he will see my love for the Lord, and one day love Him too.
No time for selfishness. There are so many times that I want to take a nap, or go shopping without having to worry about my breastfeeding schedule, or maybe just have a little alone time. Although I do have to take a little breather every once in a while, Cooper needs me the majority of the time. So I can’t be selfish, and that’s okay. Some days it is hard, but it is the most rewarding thing in the world.
My relationship with God has changed. The term “babe in Christ” has taken on a whole new meaning. As I watch Cooper grow and learn new things everyday, it inspires me to learn and grow in my walk with the Lord. The same way Cooper depends on me for everything is the same way I should depend on God for everything. I watch Cooper’s eyes in amazement of the world around him, and it encourages me to look at the world through his eyes.
I fully understand the value of human life. I’ve always known how precious life is, but the moment I knew I was going to be a mom was one of the greatest moments in my life. Every pregnancy symptom I had, every movement I felt inside of me, I knew it was a gift. Now that Cooper is here, and I see him growing every day, I don’t understand how anyone could consider taking their child’s life in the womb. Life is so incredible. It is truly something that can only be given from the Lord.
I love in a way I never thought was possible. It’s true what they say of a mother and her child. The love between them is unexplainable. The first time I looked into my baby’s eyes, I knew I loved him. I was terrified, but I knew in that moment, I would do everything I could to protect him for the rest of my life. He brings me more joy than I ever thought possible. Yes it’s tough sometimes, and sure I don’t know what I’m doing 90% of the time, but being Cooper’s mama is one of the best things that has ever happened to me.
Psalms 127:3 Lo, children are an heritage from the Lord: and the fruit of the womb is his reward.
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Mykaela Blue 